The next hardest thing I've ever done

I realized today that this is really hard!  I mean, I knew before this was going to be tough to loose 55+ lbs in order to reach my goal of being at least one pound lighter than my husband but seriously it's becoming more.  This is easily becoming the hardest thing I have ever done!  Every day I wake up and exercise.  Everyday I eat pre-prepared food. Everyday I avoid thinking about or even looking at the extra desserts from Sunday or Mariah's "Using the potty" reward chocolate.  Everyday, I even have to avoid all white bread and mostly all bread/bad carbs.  This is hard!  I am changing my life!  So a look back at the other hardest things I've ever done--1. 2005 complete a double major B.A. in choral education and vocal performance.  To do that I had 3 semesters of 20+ credits while working full time in order to pay for school.  2. Up and move to go to grad school, leaving the comfort of home and the guy I loved cuz "nothing changes if nothing changes".  3. Shoving one year of grad school into one semester while planning a wedding cuz the guy finally figured out he loved me too.  Two anxiety attacks that semester nearly did me in. 4. Have a child and drop my own career and music dreams to be a mom.  Lots of tears there! 5. Have another child--child birth is no fun especially when your drugs don't work and you've been in labor for 4 days trying not to have the child too early! Plus having that child be in the NICU--lots of tears again.  I can honestly say that trying to loose this weight is the next "hardest thing I've ever done" cuz they just keep getting harder.  All of the above changed my life for the better.  So I know this will too and because I accomplished all those things I know I can do this too.  But how many times will I question myself like I did many times before?  How many times will doubts have to happen before I finally reach the summit and a new life?  Well, I'm going to do it, I am going to work really hard cuz if this is the "next hardest thing" then I need to do it so I can be ready for whatever is coming.

Met my goal!

I met the goal on my chart for 2.5lbs a week.  With the help of 4 lbs last week of course leaving me only a lead of 0.2lbs.  So pushing hard again this week and hopefully my body will respond.  I am actually very excited!  It is crazy how much a don't want sweets now.  They look somewhat disgusting to me.  Crazy!  I can take Hyrum to the gym child-watch now too.  Life is looking good!